i was at the arcade playing.. destressing myself... and ya.. we spent like 20+ at the arcade. hais. what a waste of money! but anyway.. halfway through.. an sms came in. it was clarice...... hais.... mike's dad pass away.. i was like stun! even though i wasnt particularly close with mike but ya... we worked tgt during project rice and had a great time tgt with the rest. I just hope he take good care of himself and nt stress himself now that he is the man of the family. worst still, he is frm ntu and exams for him is like around the corner... so jia you ba mike! always remember tt there will be friends around to help u...
hais.. im not good at words when it comes to consoling somebody. but if anyway one needs practical advice i can give. LOL. although most of the times... i do not act practically when it comes to matters of the hearts...
im equally troubled myself. hais. i hope i can turn back time sometimes. going back to 4 yrs ago is the best. if u are my close friend.. u will noe why.. it is 4 yrs. sometimes, i just feel like giving up... really~... wht's the point of being tgt when the other party dont even heed wht u say. it feels like fuck man. totally. and its affecting me badly.. real bad.. argh.. i just need to pull myself tgt and study and give no shit to ur nonsense.. seriouslly. i dont want to care anymore...
i smile infront of ppl... laugh like nobody business.. but im a person with lots of tots.. worries... sometimes ppl say i think too much. i think so too, but i just cant help thinking...
maybe i should learn to let go.....
im missing home cook food like mad.. cause mummy hasnt been cooking since Feb.. and im super glad tt.. by the mid of april.. im able to have home cook food ... at last... hopefully her proj goes well.. and the system and all..and then... she can have a break!... i miss her so much... and i only get to see her like 1 hr a day... hais... and she is coughing like nobody biz... every night i can hear her cough and cough and she cant even sleep properly... =( brother in school hostel.. so the house only left me and dad... well.. bro is going to grad this sem! and he will be back... more noise more noise!... i like~ lol... oh ya.. dad was saying if we should go hawaii again...actually i quite gian ... the other time when we went.. woot.. i love the beaches.. its like super clear lor.. unlike singapore's one ..but then if i were to choose i rather we go japan.. but mom say next yr then go japan... well, let's see how it goes ba... concentrate on exams first...~
ahhh.... life sucks at times.. dont u agree..? and i realise the month of march/april.. is always not my month...
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